“Please, don’t let Finn get to you!” Kurt pleaded, his voice strained, “You protected me last night. You have done so much and you ask for less than nothing in return! I don’t want you to feel like you have to be burdened with being my friend…”
Kurt’s voice trailed off.
“I don’t feel burdened, Kurt. It’s just hard sometimes. I’m still trying to come to terms with everything, and things are happening so fast I don’t know what to feel. I just, sometimes, feel like I should have just left and done the transfer thing. At least then no one would be judging me for everything I did.” He said, his arms hanging loosely at his side. He felt…defeated. That was the best word for it. Defeated. Like the wind and waves had eroded the mighty mountain peak into a valley.
“Screw Finn, and screw anyone who judges you for trying to be a better person. Those people will always exist Dave, they’re always going to try tear you down no matter what you do.” Kurt said, his fists clenched tightly, his face was flushed. “They’re not worthy your time or effort. Don’t try to live your life pleasing other people all the time. Just be yourself and if anyone else wants to make you feel inferior, then you stand taller and don’t let them. It’s hard, but put your chin up. What do you think carried me through most of High School? It wasn’t support of friends or anything, it was conviction to not let what other people thought bother me.”
“But it has to be exhausting to live your life like that. Every day, putting that mask on. You can’t tell me what people say and do doesn’t hurt. You can’t tell me what I did to you didn’t hurt.” Dave said. “You’re brave Kurt, you’re special, that’s why I envied you so much. I wanted to be brave like you.”
“It does hurt, but you pick yourself up and move on. You talk to people, you don’t lie down and die, because that doesn’t help anyone, least of all yourself. You fight. And I’m not special Dave, I’m just Kurt. There’s nothing extraordinary about me, I’m just who I am, and if I can make at least one person understand that being themselves isn’t a terrible thing, then I’ve accomplished what I’ve wanted to do in this life. Why do you think I sing? Or act? I want to be in theatre because musical theatre can change people. Rent, Wicked, all those dramatic musicals, they all have the same element: Being yourself, even in the face of adversity. People will love the real you Dave, I promise. You just have to show them that the real Dave isn’t the bully, and that you deserve to be loved.”